I’m terrified

2 days ago  /  0 notes

Someone get me out of this fucking place.

4 days ago  /  1 note

I forgot how comforting it is to sleep with someone who actually wants to be with you.

6 days ago  /  3 notes

I wake up early every morning and watch the sunrise and think about how much that sunrise meant to you. I look at pictures of the sea and always think about how you wanted to be out there. I stare at all the stars at night and know your under them somewhere too, dreaming.

But it’s not happy any more.  I look at it all, and I wonder why I can’t just let it all go. I see any relationship, any sign of love and I think about how happy you are now that I’m gone. I’m running, and I’m going as far away as I can from you. Running from sunrises and sunsets, my dreams, my memories they are all becoming what is slowly destroying me. I was so close to being at peace with you, but I couldn’t do it. Some people aren’t meant to be together, you taught me that very well.

1 week ago  /  5 notes

A brief moment of happiness placed on a broken heart.
I miss you.

2 weeks ago  /  1 note

I hate missing someone who threw me away. I hate caring about someone who decided they had so much better. I’m going insane without you, but you gave up on me, just like everyone else.

2 weeks ago  /  1 note

You were suppose to always be there

3 weeks ago  /  1 note

I destroyed myself for the last time. I’ve sat back and just watched you love for long enough, much to long. I wanted you, and I was never going to give up I promised, but the pain is worse than death. A normal person doesn’t drown there mind with depression like I do. I’m non existent to you now. I feel like it’s always been like that, yet I tried. I’ve done more than any person would ever do. It changed me, you changed me, I changed myself, the entire situation affected the rest of my life permanently. Who knows if I’ll ever love again, who knows if I can even grow close to another human again. Both have become physically impossible for me. It’s fair to say I wish I never met you, you were last person I will ever let give up on me again. 

But I can not, will not stop loving the perfect person I once knew. I’ve just finally destroyed all my hope.

3 weeks ago  /  1 note

It’s Monday but the sooner this week ends the better.

3 weeks ago  /  7 notes